I got lost in a world
that was moving at bottleneck speeds
(free) time is unheard of
love was measured in green (currencies)
emotions were all just a scribble on the seashore
one after another - no reason, no rhyme

Staring out from my island
i feel helpless and so out of tune
no one helps you when you fall
This whole world fishing
from the same hole
fishing rods big and small
everyone was trying to “catch” the same fish
Everyone was thinking only about the same “Moby dick”

While the whole world is searching for Moby dick
i go away to
find some place new
Somewhere we can be ourselves
Some of the time

With the moonlight behind me
in the middle of all commotion
far away from land
even further away from this “contest”
I sit on a small island
devoid of all things insane
I throw the bait
and start fishing for a dream

I watched the shadow
slowly engulfing my happiness
part of me wanted to go away
while the other part wanted to stay and put up a brave fight

a fight that will either leave me dead
or a fight that will allow me to live
i cannot run forever
i cannot hide it forever

when i look into the eyes
i can see a love restrained
a desire to live
a desire….

something had been taken from deep inside
the secret that i once kept locked from all is now out in the open
sometimes i remember the darkness from the past
wishing for it to disappear
only to reappear again and again

only if i had the powers
i would take back the pain
only if i had the powers
i would retrace all the wrong moves

now frozen here in shock
i could only watch with helplessness
something in my heart telling me its time
to face the shadow and leave it all behind
leave the past behind

my happiness is right within my grasp
and i am still stuck in the past
a past that i cannot change anymore

slowly, my fears subside
while the shadows still linger
i know the happiness is still within my reach
never opened myself this way
life is ours, we live it our way
all these words I don’t just say
and nothing else matters

I watched the shadow
slowly engulfing my happiness
part of me wanted to go away
while the other part wanted to stay and put up a brave fight

a fight that will either leave me dead
or a fight that will allow me to live
i cannot run forever
i cannot hide it forever

when i look into the eyes
i can see a love restrained
a desire to live
a desire….

something had been taken from deep inside
the secret that i once kept locked from all is now out in the open
sometimes i remember the darkness from the past
wishing for it to disappear
only to reappear again and again

only if i had the powers
i would take back the pain
only if i had the powers
i would retrace all the wrong moves

now frozen here in shock
i could only watch with helplessness
something in my heart telling me its time
to face the shadow and leave it all behind
leave the past behind

my happiness is right within my grasp
and i am still stuck in the past
a past that i cannot change anymore

slowly, my fears subside
while the shadows still linger
i know the happiness is still within my reach
never opened myself this way
life is ours, we live it our way
all these words I don’t just say
and nothing else matters

I have been down and
I am wondering why
These little black clouds
Keep walking around
With me
sometimes life is one big puzzle
you wonder why things are so jumbled up
even with all the pieces in hand
you still struggle to put them all together
i try to understand
but wander around too much
to stay in one place
i walked along a path
that i thought i knew it like the back of my mind
with these little black clouds
hovering around
what i knew very well
was hidden behind a veil of darkness
what i once had lots of
has slowly ebbed away
to a mere miniscule
the more i think
the more insane i become
trying to find the path
i slowly fade
into these little black clouds
hoping to find
the path from inside
dont laugh at me
dont look at me
you just have a nice day.

Gathering up the pieces
of whats left of me
i try to make my out
it was a hard fight
that shattered a long dream
and a deeper desire to life
one that brought an end to a life
a castle that was once standing in its full glory
now lay in ruins
like the once mighty unicorn,
i was the most admired beast
now just like my mythical counterpart
i am no more than a figment of imagination
a mighty beast that once existed
now exists in the memories of those who knew it
a thousand dreams
a thousand desires to live
now lay crushed under the forces of darkness
with nowhere to go to
and no one to lean onto
i painfully try to make my way out
i slowly try to fade into black
i slowly try to fade into the darkness
that i once tried to conquer,
unsuccessfully
i slowly try to fade away